A lot of tousled talking

Today, I spent my time to do some studying. Within two weeks my exam week will start again. It will be the second exam week this year and there will be only one left before my real finals begin. It's going good so far. Everything is going according to my plans and if I will be able to continue this way, my exams shouldn't be so hard *knock knock* (I don't want to jinx it).

I'm feeling a lot better than I did a few weeks ago. School is still as terrible as it was before, but I can carry on by thinking about what will happen after I leave middle school. I will be going to the HHS (The Hague University) where I will study Social work in education and I'm so freaking excited for it! All this middle school shit, I'm just so done with it. All the people, all the teachers, the lessons and all the stupid happenings my school 'tries' to organise... Nope... I don't see myself being there for another year. Of course, I have got friends on this school. My best friends even. But there have happened things there, and I've met people there I do not want to be reminded of any longer. My dad always tells me that middle school should be the best time of my life. Maybe for him it was, I believe that he has had a nice time during middle school, but I haven't, and neither has my mum.

With thinking about going to The Hague University and can carry on for this last few months on my school. After that, I will finally be doing what I want to do. I won't be going to school with this horrible stomach ache anymore. The only thing I thing is a pity is that there are probably a lot friend I won't be seeing anymore. I know some friends who I will, probably, stay in contact with, but there are a lot who I don't see contacting me. We will all be going our own ways, live our own lives.

Oh, one thing I want to tell is that I asked the book The perks of being a Wallflower for Christmas this year, and my dad, uh, I mean, Santa, gave it to me. I'm so happy with it, because the book turns out the be even better than I imagined it to be! I can't stop reading as soon as I start, except when I fall asleep.

The other thing I did today, besides all the learning, was making a little video for on Youtube. I wanted to make my own Hair Time line, so I gathered some pictures from the past two years and put them all together in one video. I want to show you the video here!

This also made me think about something. I actually want to start making vlogs on Youtube or something, in English of course, because I want to train my speaking abilities and I want to improve my English accent. It sounds good in a way when I hear myself talking, but when I try to record it, I kind of have a total blackout and I sound so weird. I do not want to upload those videos on Youtube and make them public. I just want to keep them to myself. 

I do not know what I want to talk about yet and when I want to start doing this, but the idea is there. The only thing that I have to find is the courage and time.

Blue/purple hair!

Today, I feel like writing again, and this time, I'm going to write about my hair! Why? Because I dyed it again! I've probably told before that I dyed my hair blue with purple bangs, but it washed out and now I wanted to dye it again. I decided to bleach it first, so that my hair would all have the same colour and I had to get rid of the brown hair. The bleaching went very good! I'll post some pictures from the process!

My hair before we started the bleaching

And this is how it looked after the bleaching. It was very blonde and some spots were even white, without using a white toner! The part of my hair that was blue, turned out to be a greenish mermaid colour! I actually loved this shade :)

Now some pictures from when the dye was in!

In this picture, I'm bleaching my hair. And I almost forgot how terribly that itches!

And on these pictures you can see how blonde my hair turned out to be after the bleaching. Some parts of my hair even seemed to be white. I really love the first picture, where you can see my blonde hair plus the part where the blue was already in. 

And now! Last but not least, some pictures of the result! 

I'm so happy with how it turned out! For people who are interested, I used Directions hair dye: Atlantic Blue and Violet in the bangs. Unfortunately, it's not really possible to show the real colour on the pictures. The blue hair is somewhat darker and the purple hair is way more purple in real life! You can see the difference way better in real life. But still, I'm in love with these pictures. My hair looks so nice!

I'm sorry for a post full of pictures, but for now, I don't really have something interesting to say. Probably after Christmas, I shall write a new blogpost that is interesting to read :)

And for now, I wish all my followers a merry Christmas and a happy new year!

I'm done

I'm so fucking done. I swear. I'm so fucking done with how my life is right now. Call me a whiny bitch, fine! I don't fucking care. Think whatever you want. But believe me, as soon as I get the oppertunity, I'll be gone!

And I'll be gone forever.

It has again been proved that I can't trust anyone

Every time I think I should give someone a change, because I think they can be trusted, they prove me wrong. It happens every damn time. Every time I think someone is trustworthy, they show me that I should not have been such a fool. People are trustworthy, no one is. Not your friend, not your best friend... not even your own family.

I guess they didn't meant to betray my trust in them, but they sure did it, again. But it becomes harder and harder every time to trust someone.

I'm not even sure if it's safe to post this message.