Right now I am sitting on our balcony and it is so extremely hot. I think it might be 35 degrees celsius, if not more. I read my latest posts, and I find them a bit confusing. I'm trying to improve a bit on writing things down, because I like it when I write down my thoughts clearly and I can still understand what I meant by it years/months later. I remember how blogging used to help me understand myself and others around me by re-reading things and being able to think about it some more. It felt like having a conversation with myself. Sometimes I wrote my posts when I was angry or heavily upset. When I re-read them later I sometimes even laugh at my own thoughts because they look so childish or delusional.

I moved back inside because it is just too hot on the balcony. I probably loose my attention really quickly now. I don't want that to happen, but I cannot do anything about it. I think that is because I am not taking my medication (I have adhd), I only need it for school, says my mum, so since it is vacation I don't need it.

I actually forgot what I wanted to write about. Let me just tell about what I did today. I'm am, as you may know, in Crete and today we went to an aquapark; Aqua Plus. There were many glides, obviously. I am afraid of heights, but I still went off all the glides, except for one. It was really fun, and my hair was really weird (I tried to keep it dry, I was afraid that my hair would turn out to be purple at the end if the day due to the water. But that didn't happen, luckily)

Totally off topic. I am back on proud2bme for a few weeks now. Not because I have problems with reading again, but just because I missed those people and I want to help them. Hopefully it won't affect me, but if it will, I don't know what I will do. I missed proud so much, and I don't want to leave it again. But I might get into trouble if I will stay. Since I stopped doing 'it', I actually totally forgot about, but since I'm back there, and I've read a book about it, I feel how lucky I am that I won this fight, but I also feel bad for my friends. They are still in trouble. I hope I make some new friend on there, because most of them have left.

There is still one girl I want to talk to and apologize to, because she always was there for me and I kind of said I would stop eating until I died (I am still very embarrassed by that message) and there seems to be no way to contact her and I feel bad.

I stop writing now, because there is something on the Telly I want to watch and there is no concentration left. I'm sorry.