First schoolday!

First of all, I am sorry for not writing for such a long time. I just could not get myself actually doing it. I attempted to write several times, but I didn't work out, and now I am finally in the right mood to write something for my blog.

As you may have guessed, today was my first school day since holiday, and I really really looked up to this day. I have been to school yesterday, but today was the real first day with lessons and thinking and homework and stress and that kind of things. But actually, it wasn't too bad. I thought it would be worse than it actually was. Today was a long day, but it was okay!

I am very nervous for this year, because this year is my last year in middle school, and that means I have my exams this year. I am really afraid I won't make the grade, and that I have to do this whole year ALL over again, but I hope I will just manage to succeed and we will see.
Because I am actually looking forward to what is coming after this year. I have been thinking about life and what I would like to do later, as a job, and I am now for 99 percent sure I want to become a psychologist. I heard someone saying that I have to go to the university for that, but I think there are others ways to become a psychologist. I don't feel like going to another school for six years, and that is approximately how long university takes.
But I think that I almost know for sure that I want to be a psychologist later. And why? I don't really know. I think it is a n interesting job. I have had some issues/disorders myself and I know how it is to have it, so maybe that is why I want to help other people. Hopefully it is possible to help people with all different kinds of diseases. I would like to help people with eating disorders, depressions, OCD, borderline and many more. I think it is possible to chase this dream!

That will be my motivation for this upcoming, last, year. It is the last year of this school where I learn things I am never going to use ever again, it will only last for nine months, instead of a whole year, and if I get my diploma, I will be able to start on my way to a psychologist!

Also there is a nice thing I would like to tell! I am eligible for a certificate. Only those people who never repeated a year, and have a seven or higher are eligible. There were a total of only twelve people who qualify for it, and I was one of them. I felt proud. I do not know exactly what it all means, but it is actually a kind of reward for the good work that I deliver in school. They always have everything for people who do not understand subjects such as tutoring and homework assistance, but for people who do well, they actually don't have anything. Also, it almost goes without saying that I get high marks, according to some teachers, and therefore I am less rewarded. Actually, it's so unfair. And this is why they invented this. This all sounds a bit vague, but I'll explain it better when I also understand what it means. But we will do fun things with this group!