Even more whining

I feel like all the posts I write are about nothing really. There is not just one topic I talk about. It includes random sentences, but it is not a story. Also I think that all my previous posts consist of whining and complaining. And this one is already the same as all the other ones. Because what I wanted to write about now, is that I've found myself in a negative spiral. Every day is the same.

I wake up in the morning, get behind my computer and make myself ready for school. When I arrive there, I'm nothing but stressed about the upcoming exams I have to do (I'm in the middle of my exam week). Then I go home. Study for the test I have the next day and as soon as I finish that, I feel fine for about an hour. After that hour I start to feel worse and worse and worse. The only thing I want to do all day is sleeping. I don't have the energy to do something, and even when I wake up, I still feel tired. But when I try to think of a reason why I feel so sad and desperate every time, I can't think of it. I just feel like this, and there is no proper reason.

That is actually the problem. I feel bad without a reason. When I feel bad, and I know why I do, I try to solve the problem, or say to myself that, whatever is wrong, it will go away eventually. But now I know there is nothing actually wrong, I can't myself that everything will be all right, because things are right. There are a few problems that I'm worried about, of course, but nothing big.

Now I feel bad again, and I still don't know why. I feel tired all day, I have headaches all the time, and I don't look forward to anything (except for the upcoming weeks I am going to Italy and Crete), but even when I think about that, I don't feel any better. When someone asks me what is wrong, I can't say what is, because I don't know. All this is really confusing and I'm tired of it.

When will this go away...